Looking back on the last three months, I find that I have grown immensely, not only as a result of the intense professional environment at the Academy of Business Leadership (ABL), but also because of the various relationship dynamics that I have explored this summer. I am extremely grateful for my experiences during the summer, and I will be forever thankful for the special people in my life; I believe that I am blessed beyond all reason.
I don't want this to be a negative post, as I have no right to be expressing such sentiments. But I feel that I need an outlet, and I don't want to ever impose a burden upon other people with my petty whinings-about. So let this be a disclaimer and an apology to anyone who ever comes across this: the proceeding entry is not a reflection of my life, only the sentiments and emotions that are flying through my heart and my mind currently.
For almost my entire life, I think I've dealt with a very complicated inferiority complex. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm confident in my abilities to learn, to do work, and to get a job done, but no matter what I do, and no matter how perfect my life seems to be, I always end up feeling as if I've let someone I care about down. For example, spending time at ABL gave me joy because the job was fulfilling and meaningful on top of the fact that I was able to share it with Angela. But doing so meant that I spent less time with my family and friends. On the flipside, keeping my family and friends happy and spending time with them implies that I can't give my everything to work and that I spend less time with someone I care about so much.
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